flying 10 thousand miles is damn xiong. the original plan was to dun sleep the night before the flight and sleep during the flight but somehow on the plane cannot sleep also cos got alot of mixed feelings and unrealness. turned out pretty well though cos when i reach sg at 2am i was so tired i could slept immediately and i was able to adjust my body clock w ZERO jet lag. pro sial. but that means i had to kill 20 hours during flight heng nwa got on flight entertainment i re-watched a few movies: transformers 2 (still sucked the second time i watch it) ironman (rdj is still damn seh), and GI Joe ( i am still zhen xin towards sienna miller). but what i want to talk about is actually the 2 movies that i did not watch when it was showing in the cinemas (cos i thought they were gay)and i watched them the first time during the flight: time traveler's wife and 500 days of summer.
they are quite similar in the sense that the film is not presented in a chronological order but rather random snippets in a fashion that kind of made sense. time traveler's wife is more emo while 500 days of summer is more light hearted but kind of emo as well. both movies kind of gravitate around the idea of having "the one" in relationship (the guy believes that the girl is the one in 500 while the wife know who the husband is cos the husband traveled back in time to meet her and they all fell in love in ttw). i think i could identify with 500 days of summer cos one of my close friends actually just ended a relationship that my friend thought was "the one" initially but it simply did not worked out. it is really a hard period for my friend.
in a more general sense it's the idea of destiny and "meant to be" and this is in relevance to everything, not just relationships. of course as a christian i believe that God will provide and has a plan for me, there's alot of things that i definitely don't deserve, like going for noc being one of the big ones. however during the year that i spent in the states there were times where reality really hit me hard and i wonder is God really in control (many near death experiences (financial death included)) and started to struggle. after spending 1 year in the states, though i cant say "I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith." like paul did in timothy i know that God was looking after me and hey now i am back in singapore in one piece and i think i've learned and grown quite abit (ok you all can see whether this is true when u meet me, i still think i am retarded at times). i guess i will never fully understand how God's will and human's freewill can co-exist but i believe that He has His plans and timing and the beauty is not letting us know so that we will be interested and work hard in anticipation of a better future.
oh btw ttw and 500 dos are really nice movies go watch if you have not...if you like them i recommend curious case of benjamin button as well really interesting watch.
after coming back i realised that everything did not change much at all, it was as though i never left sg for a year. the whole experience was like a dream and now i just woke up from this long dream. looking forward to the next dream though!
and yes i am back.
