it's been a while since i last blogged but i somewhat feel compelled to pen down the thoughts that i have. yesterday a very good friend of mine happily told me that he was going to pop the big question to his girlfriend of 5 years. from the bottom of my heart i am very happy for him (they are really a very sweet and blessed couple) but at the same time i felt a tinge of disappointment in myself that i could not really put a finger to it. though i do not know his girlfriend before they got together, i was there when he shared with me how much he liked her and the excitement and concerns not knowing whether she likes him back too. fast forward 1 year (btw yes she liked him too!) it was my honor to help him to surprise his girlfriend for their one year anniversary. and now he is going to make the second most important and best decision of his life ( the top being giving his life to Jesus of course) and propose to her. they are certainly not the first couple in my circle of friends that's getting married but they are the only one that i think i witnessed right from the beginning and they are a couple that i really look up to.

i guess my disappointment came in the feeling of having not achieved anything as i really desire marriage too.

i tried and i failed.

but romans 8:28 correctly points out that everything happens for a reason that is His purpose. to be honest I've learnt and grown so much in knowing who i am and how i relate with people. more importantly i know God more and caught a glimpse of what it takes to be godly man.

as man, we are called to pursue woman. it is active and intentional. it is not passive like to attract or whatever mystery will have you believe in the game.

last year i wrote: she's on her way- and she's getting here as fast as she can.

but now although i dunno where she is i would like her to know that i am on my way- and i am getting there as fast as i can.

p/s: all the best to the bro proposing! will pray for you.